Me, Myself and I

Today is a beautiful day. Went to breakfast by myself. Wrote a paper by myself. Paid my bills by myself. Read the paper by myself. Typing this blog by myself. I'm I lonely? No. I am good company. Most of the time. The point is I am learning it is okay to be by myself. I'd much rather be hanging with someone else. But I am okay by myself. Even though there are things about me that I don't like, I am still going to be good to me. I can do things on my own and I don't have to get permission, or make an apology later. I have to live my life. No one can do it for me. While I have others in my life who I care for and want the best for, I can not live their life. Trying to live someone elses life is to live vicariously. It is not authentic. Too often, we live through other people's eyes. We act with a view of what others will think or say. These are artificial boundaries. I choose not to live this way anymore. I am good. I know what is inside me, even if other's don't. I am worth getting to know. Ron Pennington is becoming the best Ron Pennington that Ron Pennington can be. Never wrote about myself in the third person before. Guess I am discovering my identity.