Ghostbusters

I am guilty of chasing ghosts. I have been focusing on a mirage. My emotions and efforts were entangled in a love affair without substance. A fantasy. Fortunately, I have come to my senses, before anymore time and effort was expended. Sometimes you just need a slap in the face or a bucket of water poured over your head to make you wake up.

Two things that I am taking from this experience:
One, I will no longer try to relive the past or to try to make things fit into my life the way I always thought they should. I will live in the present, and each day expect great things to happen. The past is past. No sense wasting anymore time on it.

Two, before doing the introspection I've been engaging in, I would have internalized my disappointment, and made an excuse to go on an eating binge. I drove by a popular burger restaurant, and my emotions were saying feed me. I wasn't hungry. I had already eaten dinner. My pain and rejection were calling out to me, "Indulge us!" But I know now that I deserve better. I am more powerful than those voices. I don't have to give in. I am taking care of me. So I went home and ate an orange, and had a good night's sleep.