The Eye Of The Beholder

I have been discovering that I have a defect in my character. At least I think it is a defect. I know that I love beautiful things. Now that I am single, I am overwhelmed with the number of beautiful women all around. I see one woman and think, "God, she's beautiful, I'd like to meet her." In the next moment I see another woman with a completely different look, and yet I'm attracted to her too. I think that all the years of being married kind of numbed me to this sensitivity. It just wasn't kosher as a married man. Plus, the wife would've given me a backhand if if she saw me checking another woman out.

So here's my dilemna: Is this a normal response? Or am I just "objectifying" these women? I know that what is on the inside is so important in having a relationship, and I've had ladies with very nice personalities approach me and ask me out. But I'm not attracted to them. I don't want to pursue that type of relationship with someone I'm not attracted to.

I just don't know how to deal with these new feelings and emotions. Its not like I'm 17 anymore. I know there is more to a woman than her looks. But I'm unable to get past the idea that many women my age remind me too much of my mom. In my mind I still feel young. What to do, what to do.....