Sunday, December 20, 2009
I'm Looking at the Man in the Mirror
Introspection. Everyone says its important to take inventory; to look inside ourselves. But how many people actually really do it, at least on a regular basis. Looking in the mirror is my least favorite activity. I have a mental image of what I look like, but it doesn't match what I see staring back at me when I'm shaving, or brushing my teeth. In the same way, I think I have tried to avoid looking in the mirror of my soul. I have an idea what I think I am, but I'm really not sure that if I take the time to really look inside, I may be horrified. This is my quandry. People I know say I am this or that, and they always have kind words. But the people I am closest to sometimes say things about me that are not pretty. Is this a true reflection of me or are they venting their frustration that I am not measuring up to their mental image of me. So where do I go from here? I know certain things about myself. For example I am a sensual person. That is, I love beautiful sights. I love beautiful sounds. I love different textures, and smells and tastes. However, I've been taught that I shouldn't indulge those pleasures, because they are "fleshly;" that I should focus on the "spiritual" things. I am starting to rethink, what I've been taught, and starting to believe the two are not mutually exclusive. Is it possible these "beautiful" things are a gateway to experiencing the spiritual?
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One thing I learned is that we are capable of all evil and all holy. There are parts in each of us that is very disturbing. Thus the need for Christ. As for the sensual, all you have to do is read the Song of Soloman. God created beauty and pleasure. We should indeed imbrace it.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Teresa. Right and wrong, good and bad are to a degree a measure of one's perceptions. What you think about yourself might not be reflective of someone's opinion, but you do have to always consider the source and the motive behind someone's judgments. It is not easy to look inside and try to evaluate who you are, what you are doing, and where you see yourself going. The question of the purpose and meaning of life does come into all of our minds at some time or another. I think that it is great that you are writing about your feelings. It enables all of us to live vicariously through your journey. You may want to express yourself with your creative musical talents, in addition to writing some songs or poems about how you are feeling today. Creative expression is a good way to celebrate the sensual side of you and provides a healthy outlet for your emotions. Take care and thanks for your blog.
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